I redecorate my room months ago, and still didn't finish.
I had a specific look in my mind, but this look really coasts money here. I was looking for a modern look in my furniture but it's really expensive here. This look can be found here in Qatar in only two places, The One and ID Design, which I really like, but I am out of money now and still there are missing things in the room that I can't buy yet.
I am in a strict budget now, so I have to decide which is important to buy, and I am sure that a desk chair is more important that the curtains now, so I can use my computer and get back to drawing, I didn't do for a long time.
And I am planing this month to spend money really carefully, I found myself spending without controlling, and I will travel on my vacation to London and Praise so I need really tones of money to spend there.
I am planing too to travel to Japan on April next year, to catch up with the Saukra season, and of course if I am traveling I have to take someone with me, and I am sure it's gonna be my brother which I have to pay for his trip too. Still not sure if he can stay away from his family for two weeks, but I'm gonna make him. Evil me.
Still watching Gossip Girl season two and I am watching also Keeping Up with the Kardashians, which all my family is watching and I really want to know what they are talking about when they are discussing it. Still can't love the show as they do but maybe with time, I don't know.
I am watching Ugly Betty these days, and I am feeling like it's my guilty pleasure.
Feeling a little shame telling my friend that I like this show, cuz it won't be getting to her really hard taste (which I totally like) but I can NOT watching it.
I think there is something about the colors and clothes that attract me to it, even though that I didn't like it that much when I first watched it.
I bought the whole seires from the net, and I am watching it again, and I think it's really better on DVD and on the BIG TV screen than watching it downloaded from the net on the laptop screen.
I reached the forth and the final season, and I think I will start watching Scrubs the ninth and the final season as soon as I finish this. Why most of the shows I like finished? This is sucks
Well have to go to work now, and still can't find the energy to drag myself to it.
Most of my friends say that I'm a picky eater, and sometime it's driving them crazy. One of my friends insist that I'm like kids, specially that sometime I spit the food I don't like.
Once I went with my Japanese friends to a Japanese Resturant. We wanted to try new dishes there me and my friend, so we asked the Japanese friends to order for us. When the food arrived I start tasting it, and sitting most of it in a napkins, I couldn't stand it's taste. So when ever I tried anything new the Japanese friends stared at me and ask me "pass?". And when they see me swallow the food they smile.
Yeah, I know I'm a picky eater, but I think I'm better than lots of people I know. And in the same time I envy the people who can eat seafood, which I can't. I really tried but I couldn't stand it at all.
I heard once on TV that tasting food can be trained by tasting the same food for sometime, then you will get used to it. But I don't think this worked for me.
Until I can train myself to be a better eater, I will stay this picky person who starved most of the time for not finding suitable food for herself.
. Last week I had to take my cat to the vet, she was little bet sick and vomiting all over the place. She had to stay there for the night, and I went the other day to pick her up. They told me there she is OK, thank GOD. I really missed her that day and couldn't sleep well that night without her by my side on the bed.
My friend saying this is a bad thing to attach this much to my cat, cuz we know she wont be here forever, but I can't help myself. After having her for 7 years I can't not to miss her.
. These last days I am getting depressed, and I don't know why. Well I know why but I can't talk about it. Sometimes I am having this thought, kill yourself and you will finally find the piece you were searching for all of your life.
. Yesterday I went to my friend's brother wedding party. Everything was perfect except the people there. I am wondering why this strange attitude to complete strangers you don't know. Girls here having this strange look, if they don't know you they will give you the look from up to down, still don't know why.. I know this is shallow, but when will be there the time that people stop being that shallow and stop looking at your bad brand or which shoes you are wearing today. This is stupid, grow up people..
. Today I am feeling sick and didn't go to work. I lost my passion to work, cuz I am feeling like I am a machine, they order the drawing they want and I am drawing them, without thinking at all. This made me sick of my job and I am thinking seriously of changing it. But when am I going to find a place that give me the same salary as here ??
. Getting addict to buy things through line, specially the netaporter.com, can't stop myself from checking the site everyday looking for new things to buy. My sister threading me by sending me to a rehab or cutting my credit card.
Everyone got the iPhone 4 except me, I really want it but I can't afford it now, I have other priority. If I am having it as a gift I won't mind, get the hint people. Other hint, iPad would be nice too.
So finally I put my hands on the last novel by Dan Brawn, The Lost Symbol, but of course in Arabic. I got this novel like month ago, but my sister start reading it so I had to wait until she finished with it. Now I can wait to start reading it, just hope o find the time to finish it ASAP, cuz I have lots of things to do between getting ready for the exhibition I'm having in the end of this week and preparing for the new one that I'm having in the beginning of the next year, which I'm hoping it will be at the same time as the Asian Cup in Doha. Oh, and there is also my brothers wedding, which I didn't find a dress for it yet. Ok @_@ I think I have to start reading it now, or I'll never finish it.
Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis or reliable then my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice....now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, nevermind, you won't understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded, but trust me in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future, or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind: the kind that blindsides you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts; don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive; forget the insults. (if you succeed in doing this, tell me how).
Keep your old love letters; throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives; some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of Calcium. Be kind to your knees -- you'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40; maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.
Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body: use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or what other people think of it; it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance...even if you have no where to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions (even if you don't follow them).
Do not read beauty magazines; they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents; you never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings: they're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but what a precious few should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps and geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old; and when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse, but you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you are 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia; dispensing it is a way of wishing the past from the disposal--wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts, and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me, I'm the sunscreen.
This is one of my favorite speeches When I'm ever feeling down I listen to it
I'm preparing right now for my second personal exception. I choosed the theme "My Little Planet" for it.
I was always adored the little prince who lived on his little planet with his rose and three small volcanos, I always wanted to be like him, so this was my theme.
This is one of the painting, I start working on it in the Eid day, and I had the idea when I was napping that day. Me and my cousin wanted to paint something together but I ended up working on it by myself.
This is another one which I started last year and still didn't finish it. The girl's face need more work, I want to change her hair.
This one here is another version of another painting "Bubble Head", but here I added origami papers in the BG to give it more colors. I like it, but I think I should put more papers. I will put more later or maybe the next painting.
All the paintings here are in progress and I'm still working on them. Hope to finish soon.
I always wanted to try coloring with Copic Markers since I bought that tutorial book when I was in college. And at that time sure I couldn't try them, cuz I was only a student with a simple allowance that barley enough for my daily needs.
When I became a working girl ^^ I could afford them and got them with every thing else, like their special pens and papers.
I had to try them many times and read many tutorials to get them right. But they really worth every penny and second I spent on them.
They are like the greatest coloring markers ever, and I can't wait to try all the technique I read about in the tutorial book, but now I don't have the time, but sure in the future I will.
I want to make more videos like this one, so I went the other day to buy a tripod, but the one I liked was little expensive =_=
And buy checking this video you will notice that I am a lefty. I love being a left handed, but when I was a kid it brought lots of troubles in school. I don't know what is wrong with people here thinking that the only good thing is the right one @_@. So the teachers used to yell at me trying to force me to write with the right hand, saying that the devil is writing with me when I am using the left hand.
But for sure I didn't believe them, and didn't do what they asked me to. I grew up in a family half of them are left handed, my Grandma, my uncle, and half of my sisters and brothers are left handed.. what is the wrong here??
So finally I attended the play yesterday. ^^ FINALLY
After all these months and listing only to the music and seeing pictures, and order tones of stuff from the internet, finally the project came together as this huge play.
This play is the first play that use the 3D screen in the middle east and in Qatar, and I hope after this play people will think more of the theater and start respecting it more than before.
I wanted to attend the rehearsal but unfortunately I didn't have the chance, and all my friends said that I missed a lot. I felt sorry >_<>
I attended the play with my sisters and cousins and friends, we screamed, laughed and clapped for every scenic in the play. It shows Abdullah's big effort in it.
I can't describe it enough, I felt like I am watching a disney show or something.
Can't wait for the DVD, and I already bought the sound track CD.
عندنا سبورة في المكتب، نحب نرسم عليها انا وصديقتي بين فترة والثانية. نرسم قصص ومواقف علينا وعلى اللي معانا في المكتب.
في البداية كانت السبورة بس في مكتب المسؤو ل، وكنت كل يوم ادخل مكتبه وارسم عليه موقف اغتاله فيه. مسكين يدخل كل يوم مكتبه يجوف روحه ميت بطريقة غير. والحلو ان الكل مستانس على الحركة وينطرون كل يوم شلون بيموت اليوم.
بعدين ركبناسبورة عندنا في المكتب وصرنا نرسم عليها. بس لين الحين ادخل مكتب المسؤول وارسم عليه شي .
اللي يضحك اني ارسم، وارجع بعد شوي القى حد مزيد على الرسمة شي.
وهاي اخررسمتها امس حق العيد. بنك الوطني مب احسن منا.
حلو ان جو المكتب على المشاكل اللي فيه، بعد نحاول نضحك روحنا غصب.
People think I'm crazy, 'cause I worry all the time
If you paid attention, you'd be worried too
You better pay attention
Or this world we love so much might just kill you
I could be wrong now, but I don't think so!
'Cause there's a jungle out there.
It's a jungle out there
I got inspired for this painting when I was watching Monk the other day.
Even though that I am almost in my mid thirty, I feel that I didn't live my life yet.
There are lot's of things I want to do, but I am feeling that I am a prisoner behind the doors and walls, that my parents build around me.
In their mind they are protecting me, but this is overprotection, This is wrong.
When I will have my chance to live ?? If it's not now then when??
This girl here represent me, but most of girls I know who saw this painting said they have the same feeling..
So I am dedicating this painting to all the girls out there who their families keeping them locked away behind house's doors away from the world.. the world who they let us picturing it as a jungle and won't let us explore it..
لما كنت صغيرة كنت اشم حق رمضان ريحة حلوة، احسها في الجو حوالينا. أتذكر رمضان قبل ممزوج بصوت الديك وهو يأذن الفجر، وروحتي حق بيوت الجيران أوزع صحون الأكل عليهم، وآخذ منهم حق بيتنا.
الحين ماصرت اشم هالريحة الحلوة في الجو. ليش؟ شنو اللي تغير؟ رمضان تغير والا احنا تغيرنا؟ كبرنا، وداومنا، وانشغلنا.
رمضان السنة وايد متعب، قبل كنت ماحس بالوقت يمر، والحين احسه ثقيل وطويل، ومن أقوم من النوم وانا احس بالعطش لحد مافطر.
يمكن لأنه صادف أحر سنة. قريت ان الصيف في كل البلدان وصل درجات حرارة ماوصلها من قبل. وعندنا وصل الستين، وبعض المناطق عداها.
ومع هالتعب وثقل الوقت، حسيت ان رمضان مر بسرعة السنة. مر القرنقعوه وعدى، والحين ماباقي منه الا عشرة ايام تقريبا.
ولحد الحين ماشميت ريحته.
السنة الياية ان شاءالله اذا الله احيانا، باشم ريحته والا خلاص، راحت ومابترد؟
It's really nice when you can speak two or more languages.
I know Arabic, English and little Japanese. Well most people I know are like me.
But what I really hate is the writing.
I can read Arabic and I can read English, but this gibberish I can't. I hate it when people combine Arabic words with English letters..
Why they are doing that?? Thinking it makes them looks smart?? Oh look at us.. we can't use Arabic keyboard, it's too hard on us.
I believe they call this kind of writing the Chat writing, and I know that people invented this kind of writing, cuz many live in foreign countries and they don't have supported Arabic computers, so they used to use this language.
But that was in the past, when the computers used to be simple, so why still using it?
And what about the people who live in their countries?? They don't need to use this kind of writing, why keep using it?
When I come across this writing, I ignore it and skip to the Arabic parts which I can understand easily. And when people SMS me, I refuse to read unless it was Arabic or English, cuz if I tried to read it, I am going to spend more than five minutes @_@
Please people stop using this awful mixing between two beautiful languages. And trust me, it's not making you look smart and educated at all.
When I am at work, and everyone talking to me at the same time asking me for tasks and things to do, I feel like I am going to cry. I can't concentrate like this, even though I am a multi tasking person.
When I am sitting peacefully in my room, hearing nothing but my own thoughts, this is the greatest moment in the day. After a long day at work, I really prefer sitting alone in my room than sitting with my family which I didn't see the whole day.
If there are planets for sale, for sure I am going to buy one for me, a small one that include a small house and a tiny field full with roses and sun flowers. You know that little planet you start with in Mario Galaxy Wii game?? This will be my planet.
I can read the whole day there, or I can paint, and when I want something I can travel in my little space ship to the mall planet and get what I need then get back to mine.
But I have to think of ways to keep annoying people away from me. Maybe a guard space dog, or I can pay some security company to make patrols around my planet to keep everyone away from me.
Dreams will never come true, I know. Until that I have my small room.
Sitting in front the big screen, staring at the blinking marker, thinking what do I want to write about?
I feel that there is a lot to say and tell but I don't know where to start or how to start.
After watching Julie and Julia the movie I got this erg that I want to start writing in my blog, that there might be someone like to read what I want to say.
After fooling around with other blogs sites, I came back to my old one. It's like an old friend that you know for a long time and missed him so much, and when you met again you have lots to catch up with.
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